mikeyboy15

14 October 2008 @ 07:42 pm

Fuck this US against the world theirs no other one for me i stand alone but i don't want to any more i've been strong for to long and I'm starting to fall apart and i need some one to be the tape to hold me to gather.
I've been independent for to long call me weak or unstable but i still feel the same. Try being alone and with out that kind of person for years not having some one you can trust or go to with any thing some one to hold you in the bad times and have beside you to enjoy the good. Can you say that you felt alone when you really need some one. Has it driven you insane to the point were you just closes your self off to every one around you because you feel like they just wouldn't understand no mater how hard they tried.

"Don't rush it man the right one will come for you" YA FUCKING RIGHT! they say that to make me feel better but in the end i'm tired of waiting and being patient. They say that but they don't know what I'm feeling.

I need that some one to be able to trust to be there with me when i really need them just some on to call my own.

-Mikeyboy15

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13 October 2008 @ 09:39 pm

what do i need 2 do

this might sound weird but like lately I've been feeling pointless like every thing I do is one big waste of time but even though I feel that way I don't stop doing what I'm doing and my priority's are so out of order. Its weird some times I feel like things that don't mater or shouldn't mater to me are so much more important then like school or finding a job and doing my home work.

some times I think I feel like this because I want to do some thing more significant but every time I try it seems like I'm wasting my own time, even when I tell my self to forget about it and get back to more important things I still wont stop trying I'll keep pushing my self in the wrong direction some where I don't need to be. I feel like this with many situations but lately its this...

Recently I met some one whom I gotten really close with really fast he's younger by 2 years and even though we've only met about a month and a half ago he almost feels like a little brother to me. Any way lately he's been hanging out with...the wrong people. For some reason I kind of get worried about him. He’s 14 and doing things that he should not be doing. I know I cant stop people from doing stuff everyone has erg's and wants hell I know I do I only get to live once so why not try it right but some time I get this feeling like some people are getting in to deep and I know they wont be able to pull them selves out. That's how I feel with this situation and I feel like I should do what I can to keep him in shallow waters but every thing I say is pointless and every time I fail I tell my self to forget it go on with your life but I always go back! . I think I'm looking fore is some guidance some one to tell me or help me explain my own thought to me some one to say its ok to care or to finally convince me to give up and get my priority's back in order. I'm just so confused with my self if that makes sense.

this is how things are for me with other things to. Same idea different people different drama.

IJUST FEEL LIKE EVERY THING I TRY TO DO IS SO FUCKING POINTLESS!

-mikeyboy15

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